I'm too lonely, scared and bored
To think about my future
I'm only lying in my past
To try to have you again
I'm too lonely, scared and bored
And I don't wonder anymore.
I used to wander through your hair
I got excited at your door
I talked about the people
I wondered what they all were for
But now my eyes are filming over
And my brain has killed my soul
The fine things have all happened
Good times will never roll.
I used to remember all
I used to remember sun
But where the hell did you go
Nostalgic twenty-one?
This flimsy time of change
These clothes are all too small
Every moment here is strange
This dusty suit don't fit at all
I used to dress in black
I used to dress in gray
But now they've bled through my skin
And I don't wonder anymore.
And I don't wonder anymore
Why you've gone and changed your hair
And I don't wonder anymore
As I gestate in this chair
And I don't wander anymore
Through the gates to your lair
And I don't wonder anymore
While I am here and you are there.
And on this doorstep to my life
My eyes have rolled back in my head
My future tries to force my hand
But it's the past that holds the knife
I used to wonder why I hurt
I used to wonder why I aged
I used to try to write it down
My wonder filling every page.
But I don't wonder anymore
In this crankcase skull-wrapped cage
I don't wonder anymore
So all I do is age.
credits
from Song Foundry 3-Pack #012,
released February 18, 2022
Produced by Jed Davis
Music by Jed Davis, lyrics by Christopher Hug, published by Eschatonality/ASCAP
Jed Davis: vocals, keyboards
Angel Marcloid: guitars
Pablo Arruda: bass
Chris Barber: drums
Joe Zeitlin: cello
Engineered by Jed Davis at Pile of Sound
Additional recording by Angel Marcloid and Musiversal
Mixed by Martin Merenyi
Mastered by Chris Hanzsek